April 2010
1 post
And I'm still OK
I figured it was time for a check-in. I know women keep coming through this blog every day. Some of you send me emails. Some of you leave comments. If you ever have questions, please don’t hesitate to send them to me. If today is your first day here and you’re totally freaking out, that’s OK. I was totally freaking out when I was in your shoes too. And everything turned out OK....
October 2009
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May 2009
1 post
Sex & Money = Prostitution?
I recently got a comment on my post about whether or not women should ask their partners to contribute to the cost of prescription birth control (and how many do or don’t). I really found what the commenter had to say as interesting as I’d never really heard the conversation about birth control discussed within this context:
“I really believe that most women feel uncomfortable...
April 2009
3 posts
"When I was pregnant..."
We found out a coworker is pregnant today. A few of us had privately been suspecting it for a couple weeks as we saw the outward signs—tiredness where she had previously been peppy, turning down drinks at happy hours, and a few extra pounds around the middle and chest. Finally the ballsiest of the girls went over and gently asked (using the alcohol, not the weight as the reason) and she...
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Does your boyfriend/husband help pay for your...
My last post about the cost of prescription birth control (especially ones like NuvaRing that don’t have generic alternatives) reminded me of another important issue: Does your partner help pay the cost of your birth control medication?
My boyfriend recently started offering to cover half the costs, and we’ve added it to the other bills we split each month (like rent and cable). This...
More birth control irony
I guess it’s not just me that struggles with the libido while on the NuvaRing. It’s incredibly frustrating for someone like me who is in a relationship, because it makes me feel a little bit useless in bed. I’ve found that it really takes a lot of effort on his part to get me interested and keep me focused…almost like he has to talk me through it in order to get me...
March 2009
2 posts
Libido & the NuvaRing
I’ve been having misgivings about the NuvaRing lately. I can’t be exactly sure, but I suspect it’s affected my sex drive. Ever since I started using it, it’s like a switch has been turned down. Not off, exactly, but definitely very low. I don’t think about sex as much as I used to. I don’t really think about it much at all.
On the occasions that we do start to...
Been there, done that
The appointment came and went. I spent more time in the waiting room than in the actual office. During my history I mentioned the abortion and the doctor just nodded and asked for the date and moved on to the next question. She did the exam and told me to be careful with the NuvaRing—never to leave it in too long or to forget to remove it since “we know your body likes to be...
February 2009
1 post
Just Normal
I don’t really think about it that much. It doesn’t pop up in my head every day or even every week. I actually had to stop just now to think how long ago it had been (nearly two months). I’ve been feeling great for about a month—no cramps, no bleeding, no pain, hormones under control, no soreness during sex. I don’t think about it anymore than I would had it been any...
January 2009
3 posts
One out of three women has an abortion in her... →
Another fantastic blog by a woman going through a second trimester abortion. Amazing how more and more voices keep piping up. It shouldn’t have to be a big secret, folks.
The Ring
Popped the ring out today. It was really easy. I actually started bleeding a bit (more like spotting) a couple days ago and I’m not sure if it’s an early period or still leftover from the abortion. I went a full week or so without bleeding before this. There is no cramping along with the bleeding and though I’ve been wearing a thin pad I really only notice it when I wipe. Am...
The beat goes on
It’s cool to know that there are still people reading. Have been feeling great this week and our sex life has also gotten back to normal, which is *especially* nice. Although I’ve noticed that I still feel a tiny bit of discomfort if my boyfriend goes in a bit too deep. Not sure why that is. Has anyone else who has recently had an abortion experienced that two + weeks after? I wonder...
December 2008
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Happy New Year
Happy New Year ladies. Thank you all so much for your support, advice, and love in the past month. I hope that I can offer the same to those who may need it over the coming year.
xoxo
Two Weeks Later
It’s been two weeks since my abortion and I’m feeling back to normal. The cramps went away completely about four days ago (just in time for Christmas!) and I stopped bleeding right around the same time. My boyfriend and I had sex again for the first time in more than three weeks on Saturday night and it was great ( a little under two weeks after the procedure, which is what my doctor...
One Week Later
It’s been exactly one week (almost to the minute) and I’m still doing really well. The serious cramping started up on Friday and hasn’t let up. In fact, last night was probably the worst all week. Today it’s still cramping, but not as bad as yesterday. The bleeding is about the same as a normal period, except that since I can only use pads it’s a lot more...
Better!
Feeling a lot better now. I took a nap with the heating pad and some advil and it seems to have passed for now. I even had time to do a bunch of prep for the party tomorrow. Definitely feeling in better spirits and looking forward to a busy (but fun) day tomorrow!
Ughhh
Screw the “uterine massage.” I’m downing Advil.
“A woman has strengths that amaze me, she can handle trouble and carry heavy...”
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More Uterus Updates
So I’m starting to think that scheduling the abortion and the cocktail party five days apart was maybe not a brilliant idea. I would have loved another week to recover a bit and to maybe shed some of this water weight. My googling has shown that the cramping is just from my uterus going back to it’s normal un-pregnant size. I read about a “uterine massage” online that can...
Blast...
Just when I thought I’d hit some kind of recovery jackpot, I got hit with a dose of bad cramps today. Still not as awful as my usual period cramps, but strong and persistent enough that I can’t just ignore them. I popped 500mg of maximum strength Midol (it was the only thing I had sitting on my desk at work) and am hoping that it’ll kick in quickly. The bleeding is still all but...
Is this normal?
It’s been three days since the abortion and I *still* have to pee all the time. If I wait even a minute, I start to get dizzy and the urgency is way too much. In the mornings, I take off running for the bathroom the second I wake up. Is this normal? Do I still just have too much HCG in my system? Because I think that this is probably one of the most annoying pregnancy symptoms ever and am...
Two Days After
It’s been about 48 hours since the procedure and I’m still doing really well. My moods have really regulated since then. Almost instantly, actually. I suffered from horrific mood swings the entire time I was pregnant, but now I feel normal again! My bleeding is practically non-existant—just a bit of brown (old blood) spotting when I wipe. I read that it can start out that way and...
Guest blog
Yesterday the awesome folks at Choice USA posted a guest blog that I wrote for them in their organization blog. You can read the post here: http://www.choiceusa.org/index.php?option=com_jd-wp&Itemid=80&p=885
Be sure to check out their site because it is awesome and has lots of great information about reproductive health and politics for women.
Un-Expecting's Super Abortion Checklist for...
I’ve put together a long checklist of things that will definitely make your abortion experience a lot easier. I’ve tried to be as thorough as possible, but if you can think of anything else that you’d like to add from your own personal experience, please e-mail me or leave it in the comments and I’ll be sure to add.
**Please note that I am not a doctor and that nothing on...
Not Guilty
One of the things that scared and worried me about this whole process was how I would feel about it afterwards. I was concerned that I’d suddenly hit with a huge wave of guilt about having gone through with the abortion.
I haven’t really talked about it much (if at all), but I think I should mention that while I’m by no means a super religious person, I do consider myself a...
Post-Abortion update
Oh my gosh I am feeling SO gassy and bloated. Nice, huh? I Googled it and apparently this is totally normal after the abortion. And, for some reason I’m only craving salty or starchy things, which isn’t really helping the bloat. I’m going to try and cut down on the starches next week to see if I can get back to semi-normal by this weekend.
Fortunately I don’t have any...
What the abortion felt like
It started out much like any gynocological exam. Naked from the waist down, I pushed down to the edge of the table with my feet in the stirrups. My boyfriend sat in a chair next to me and held my hand the whole time. I think this was definitely the best part of it. I’m so happy that he was able to be there with me and think that all women going through this should have the opportunity to...
All done!
I’m back from the hospital in France, everyone! I have to say that as far as minor surgical procedures go, this was pretty great experience. I’m feeling really good right now. My cramps are gone and though there is a little bleeding, it isn’t that uncomfortable. Also the nausea and boob tenderness have gone away, which is a little miracle in itself.
I’m trying to figure...
Today is the day!
Well, it’s abortion day! I actually slept through the night although I had all sorts of weird abortion-getting dreams about hospitals waiting rooms. In the morning I called out sick from work and boyfriend and I giggled about it for a bit. I went with “stomach bug” but was tempted to say “Can’t come in today because I’m getting an abortion.” Man, I really...
Future possibilities???
Have been thinking that I might want to turn this experience into an article of some kind for a publication of some kind. Would want to do it anonymously of course so will need to first figure out how that works and how to go about it. Hmm…
Uggggggg
The nausea is hitting again. Boyfriend is making me some yummy ginger tea and I’m watching YouTube videos to distract myself…
The day before
After a delicious breakfast of bagels, eggs, and lox, boyfriend ran out to pick up the supplies I’d need for tomorrow and on (pads in different strengths, a big bottle of Advil, and a thermometer). The thermometer is for taking my temperature every day this week after the surgery to make sure that I’m not developing an infection. I’m home in my pajamas watching In Her Shoes for...
And this morning...
I woke up and for a second thought it was Monday and I got nervous. But then I remembered I still have a whole day left. And I went back to sleep feeling much calmer.
At the dinner table?
Sorry I’ve been so quiet today! We hosted my boyfriend’s parents for dinner and it was quite the day. Somehow abortion came up as the main conversation at dinner. And no, they do not know that I’m about to have one on Monday. Am super exhausted and in a lot of pain from being on my feet all day cooking, so the stories will have to wait. I’ll be back soon to tell you more...
“I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of...”
– Marilyn Monroe (via kristenisfornerd) (via maybe-not)
Some other awesome blogger ladies!
I’m not the only girl getting an abortion and blogging about it. Here are two others you should definitely check out, plus an incredible blog by women who actually work at an abortion clinic and deal with this issue every day:
Blog by a girl who chose to get her abortion the medical way (taking the abortion pill): http://prochoiceabortionblog.blogspot.com/
Blog by a girl with a wicked...
Smile!
Just got a note from another girl who literally *just* got back from her procedure and she said it went really well. I’m so happy that she had a good experience and it’s given me a bit more confidence for mine. I loved the awesome phrase she used to describe the way it felt (local anesthesia and a Valium cocktail). She said it was like having her “period on time-lapse...
One bad apple
“Excuse me…excuse me,” I said loudly to nobody in particular as I clutched my head. “I’m dizzy I think I need to sit down.”
I don’t like standing on the train. On the best of non-pregnant days it makes me feel a little hot and dizzy, but right now it is definitely not the time to spend 15 minutes on a hot, stuffy train standing much too close to cranky...
Where is my glow?!
I’m just going to come out and say it. This unwanted pregnancy is making me look really ugly. I’m serious. I look terrible right now. I really do. I’m puffy and bloaty and my face is pale. I keep getting breakouts. I can’t be bothered to do much more with my hair than brush it back into a ponytail. And I’ve been wearing no makeup and my “comfy” jeans and...
And the moods just keep on swinging!
This really is like the world’s worst PMS!
This morning I woke up feeling fine and determined to be nice today. I feel like I’ve been acting like a madwoman all week and my poor wonderful boyfriend has really been getting the brundt of it. I’m glad that we live together though because if he weren’t around all the time, I’d probably be wallowing and the house would be...
Sex and sleep
I’m feeling much better this morning than I was last night. I could barely fall asleep last night; I kept tossing and turning and trying to find a not uncomfortable position. BF waited it out patiently, accommodating himself to whatever space I left after each of my flips. I fell asleep, finally, and dreamt odd dreams about doctor’s appointments, blood tests, and babies. These dreams...
Angry and Silent
Why won’t he ask me anything about it? If it were him feeling sick or upset or whatever, I’d be googling the hell out of it trying to figure out things. I feel like he’s just kind of waiting around, following my lead when I want HIM to take the lead. Look stuff up. Ask me about it. Don’t act like it’s some giant elephant in the room. He’s the only person that...
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Eating for One
Before all this (she says, with a general sweep of her hand), I was careful about carbs. I avoided pasta and white flour and things that were too sugary. I know my body and I know how those foods make me feel (and look). The funny thing is that ever since the pregnancy symptoms hit, I’ve been craving these things full-force.
This evening my boyfriend went out to the gym while I lay on the...
Oh the morning/afternoon/night sickness
It’s been terrible today. I was perfectly fine this morning and then boom! just like that it hit me. I keep glancing over to my trash can just to make sure it’s close by in case I need to puke. I think I’m going to have to bite the bullet and get a packet of saltines to deal with this.
Oh and to make matters worth, the secretary came by my desk earlier to hand me something and...
Grrrr
Boyfriend is complaining that his big lunch is making him sleepy. Is “Yeah? So? And I’m pregnant.” an appropriate response?