11th
And the moods just keep on swinging!
This really is like the world’s worst PMS!
This morning I woke up feeling fine and determined to be nice today. I feel like I’ve been acting like a madwoman all week and my poor wonderful boyfriend has really been getting the brundt of it. I’m glad that we live together though because if he weren’t around all the time, I’d probably be wallowing and the house would be a mess and I’d be eating nothing but apples and peanut butter straight from the jar. But he’s been wonderful, running to the store to satisfy my cravings and patiently waiting out my horrible mood swings. And for this I decided this morning to just be nice. I figured it would be psychosomatic, the same way that smiling even when you’re not happy soon elevates your mood or that opening your mouth really wide can force a yawn.
“I’ll just be nice,” I told myself, and so I greeted him warmly when I got to work and chit-chatted about nothing in particular. It was going well until he asked me what store I was planning on going to tonight (I mentioned that I needed to pick up a few things for dinner on Saturday) and just like that I snapped! I have no idea why the most innocent of questions annoyed me. The idea that he wanted to know just made me mad and I replied curtly. Then when he started googling to find the closest store to me (something which girls with normal hormonal levels might find helpful) I got even more pissed and told him to drop it and leave me alone. Then when he apologized I sat stewing and trying to rationalize my feelings but I could not (because they are totally irrational) and yet also could not bring myself to stop it.
It’s madness ladies and I really wish there were a way to control it. I’m afraid I’ll do or say something really mean that I’ll regret.
