15th
Not Guilty
One of the things that scared and worried me about this whole process was how I would feel about it afterwards. I was concerned that I’d suddenly hit with a huge wave of guilt about having gone through with the abortion.
I haven’t really talked about it much (if at all), but I think I should mention that while I’m by no means a super religious person, I do consider myself a Christian and I did grow up going to church every sunday. I even taught sunday school and pray very regularly (several times today even!). I say all this just to bring up the point that you can be a Christian and have an abortion and still feel like it was the right choice. I don’t feel guilt or as if I’ve done something wrong. I realize that some people would disagree with me, but I feel incredibly comfortable and happy about my decision.
Some day I will be ready to have children, and I can’t wait to be a mom. I know that time isn’t now, and this was the right choice for me. Abortion is something that is often talked about within the context of morality and religion. I just wanted to point out that it can be a choice for people of many different backgrounds.
To me this didn’t feel like a moral decision. It felt like a medical, practical, and financial one. When I walked out of the hospital today I felt a little tired and sore, but there was no emotional weight. If anything, I felt lighter and excited about what was to come. I realize that it’s still very early and maybe in a few days I’ll feel a little bit sad, but I don’t think it will be from guilt.
