29th
Two Weeks Later
It’s been two weeks since my abortion and I’m feeling back to normal. The cramps went away completely about four days ago (just in time for Christmas!) and I stopped bleeding right around the same time. My boyfriend and I had sex again for the first time in more than three weeks on Saturday night and it was great ( a little under two weeks after the procedure, which is what my doctor told me) , although I was a little sore afterwards. The next day we tried it again, but it didn’t go well at all. I was very sore although there was no bleeding and I was feeling fine by the time I woke up. I’m not sure if this is related to the procedure or if it has more to do with the fact that it’s been so long. I think it’s probably the latter, but either way I think we’re going to wait another couple days before trying it again.
My pregnancy symptoms have all basically disappeared, although I noticed that I had a bit of an emotional blowout the other night. I can’t even remember the circumstances specifically, but I think it had something to do with my boyfriend wanting to put away his clothing and take out his contacts before jumping in bed with me. For some reason it felt like the most awful rejection at the time and so I announced that the ‘window was closed’ and I curled up and went to bed. When he tried curling up next to me a few minutes later, I refused to let him touch me for a full hour during which I spent the whole time silently crying into my pillow, and wondering why he didn’t want me like I wanted him. I’m going to chalk that one up to residual hormones because it is definitely NOT typical behavior for me.
My cravings haven’t gone away either. For some reason all I ever want to eat is chocolate and sweet things. I’m trying to regulate my diet again and think a mild cleansing detox might be just the thing to get me back on track. I started today with a tall glass of water and lemon juice, followed by a smoothie made from one pear, two cups of almond milk, a big scoop of sugar free whey protein powder, and 1 heaping tablespoon of ground flaxseed. I’m just going meal by meal here in an attempt to not overwhelm myself and to try to clean out all that excess sugar and white flour I consumed during the past couple months.
The Nuvaring has also been in for two weeks now and I’m still quite happy with it. No side effects and I can’t even feel it. Not having to take a pill every day is all kinds of wonderful. I’m excited to be able to start this new year fresh with my boyfriend. We have a vacation planned for Feb and it’s given me something great to look forward to (also a goal for dropping some of the extra pregnancy pounds). I’m going to continue to update here as regularly as possible and especially if I have any interesting symptoms or physical developments. Please also feel free to email me or comment with any questions you may have. I’m happy to offer advice if you want from someone else who went through the same thing.
