2nd
The beat goes on
It’s cool to know that there are still people reading. Have been feeling great this week and our sex life has also gotten back to normal, which is *especially* nice. Although I’ve noticed that I still feel a tiny bit of discomfort if my boyfriend goes in a bit too deep. Not sure why that is. Has anyone else who has recently had an abortion experienced that two + weeks after? I wonder if it has anything to do with the placement of the NuvaRing or with residual tenderness from the operation. Boyfriend says he can definitely feel the NuvaRing in place, but that it’s not a bad thing. “Just an extra ridge,” he added. It hasn’t popped out yet although I do make a point of checking on it every night. A bit paranoid that it will escape and get lost in my sheets without my noticing.
On New Year’s Eve, we lay in bed talking about things that we’re looking forward to this year and boyfriend joked that “not knocking me up” was high on his list. Not in 2009, anyway!
Oh gosh and the emotions are still a little iffy. It’s pretty nutty, actually. I had another attack of tears and sadness a few days ago that I can only blame on the leftover hormones. It all started in the middle of the night when I woke up and started tossing and turning and thinking about my life. I couldn’t sleep so I got up and sat on the side of the tub for a few minutes until boyfriend came to see what I was up to and bring me back to bed. I fell asleep eventually and then woke up incredibly sad. Boyfriend cuddled and asked me what was wrong and I just lay there crying quietly. He refused to leave for work until I was better so we both lay for a bit until I told him I was fine. I fell back asleep and when I woke up I felt completely better although I was a little confused about the incident. It’s pretty incredible how our hormones can really control our actions and emotions. I think one amazing thing about this pregnancy and abortion is that it has made me incredibly aware of my body and it’s subtle and constant changes. I’m really thankful for that because I think all women should be this in tune with themselves.
Next week (on Monday), we’re starting a one-week detox plan to recharge our systems and start the year off right. I’m cutting out all flour, wheat, sugar, processed foods, meats, and a few other things. I’ll probably blog about it as I go and keep you posted on the progress and results. I think this is a great way to clear out some of the havoc the pregnancy/cravings/hormones/and holidays did to my system. I can’t wait to start!
