13th
Just Normal
I don’t really think about it that much. It doesn’t pop up in my head every day or even every week. I actually had to stop just now to think how long ago it had been (nearly two months). I’ve been feeling great for about a month—no cramps, no bleeding, no pain, hormones under control, no soreness during sex. I don’t think about it anymore than I would had it been any other event. It feels—most significantly I think—normal. It feels normal. Not spectacular, just normal.
Next week I have a Gyno appointment with a new doctor. Just a routine exam, but I’ll of course have to mention the abortion, just like I’ll have to mention it at every other doctor’s appointment for the rest of my life. But I don’t really find that any less awkward than mentioning how many sex partners I’ve had or dropping my skirt and opening my legs for a woman I’ve never met (or a woman period, for that matter).
The point of this is really just what I’ve been saying all along, it seems. This whole thing (she says with a wave of her hand) is just a normal medical thing that happened and wasn’t ideal and not always easy, but which has since slipped by along with all the other things that happen and slip on by while time and life continue to pass.
If you’re waiting for your turn right now, don’t fret. Soon enough it will all be normal again.
